崖边搏斗 2023 Struggle on the Cliff’s Edge 2023
收录： 共十二篇 Twelve pieces in total
朝中措 · 送刘仲原甫出守维扬 宋 欧阳修 平山阑槛倚晴空，山色有无中。手种堂前垂柳，别来几度春风。 文章太守，挥毫万字，一饮千钟。行乐直须年少，尊前看取衰翁。 Chao Zhong Cuo: Seeing Off Liu Zhongyuanfu to Govern Weiyang By Ouyang Xiu (Song Dynasty) The balustrades of Pingshan Hall lean into sunny azure skies, the hues of mountains lingering between being and nothingness. The weeping willows…
新年的数字流沙在生命的指尖流逝，好像没有什么心思掰着手指数公历年的翻篇，农历新年似乎还有些指望？各大平台上的明星对兔年的宣传可谓铺天盖地。而我似乎还有些无措：我对兔年的印象还停留在喜羊羊大电影… The hourglass grains of the New Year slip through the fingertips of existence; I have little heart to count down the turning pages of the Gregorian calendar, yet perhaps the Lunar New Year still holds a glimmer of promise? Celebrity…
现在总觉得冥冥之中有一种定数，一切应该到来的其实在我的生命中早就埋下了伏笔。 Nowadays, I always sense a mysterious destiny at work—everything meant to arrive was already presaged long ago in the foreshadowing of my life.
今天有同学问我一个很有意思的问题：他上大学大半年，电脑在日常使用中的频次和重要性没有想象中那么大，手机跟平板的使用频率却是远大于电脑的。 Today a classmate asked me an intriguing question: after more than half a year at university, why has the frequency and indispensability of the PC in daily life turned out to be far smaller than imagined, while smartphones and tablets…
一个人在一座陌生城市的生活就像是抛弃既有的社会身份重新开始一段人生、探索一个城市，这种感觉很自由、很神奇。很多次觉得没有一座城市引力能把我吸住，只有每一次很用力的告别让我感觉，身体从城市上空坠… Living as a stranger in a new city feels like casting off an established social identity to start an entirely new life, exploring urban topography with a sensation both magical and intoxicatingly free. Time and again, I felt that no city…
好喜欢在细碎嘈杂的日常下平静安稳的温暖，把时间揉进街道，抖落阳光的细尘。好喜欢大海，好喜欢好喜欢，辽远而温柔的粉蓝，令人安心的浪声和粼粼的水光。 How I cherish the tranquil, reassuring warmth nestled beneath the clamor of trivial routines: kneading time into city pavements, shaking loose the golden dust of sunlight. How I love the sea—truly, madly love it: the vast, tender pastel…
因为一些事翻出了十年前的5段证书，这张证书应该算是我人生前十年最骄傲的事了。说来好笑，我在本市几次定段均失败，每次到了上海就连胜，提前一轮定段，当时还因此觉得上海围棋水平很差哈哈哈哈哈。可是这… A recent circumstance prompted me to dig out my 5-Dan Go certificate from a decade ago—an achievement that probably represents the proudest accomplishment of the first ten years of my life. Amusingly enough, I had failed multiple promotion…
无数个平凡日子堆叠成一段厚重的人生，特殊的闪光点在时空标尺密密麻麻的坐标侵蚀下也变得模糊且同质。有些日子因其特殊的含义而在生命中刻下不可磨灭的坐标，当回顾自己所行经的岁月，格外清晰的回忆让我产… Countless mundane days stack into the weight of a human life; special glittering milestones blur into homogeneity under the corrosive friction of dense coordinates on the spacetime ruler. Yet certain days carve indelible landmarks into…
我已经夺取了许多曾经归于上帝和佛陀的权力。满怀恐惧，毫无准备，我已经僭取了我的小世界里所有生物的生杀大权。危险、光荣和选择最终取决于我。我是否能达到完美，考验就在眼前，我只能从自身中寻找以往向… I have seized many powers once reserved for God and the Buddha. Fraught with terror, utterly unprepared, I have usurped sovereignty over the life and death of every creature within my miniature cosmos. Danger, glory, and choice ultimately…
刚上大学的时候，前女友问我，在大学什么样的人算幸福？我回答说“自洽”。但是现在看“自洽”是很难真正达成的吧。很多时候，只是没有经历社会的毒打，只是表面上光鲜。我截止到2022年6月，除了学习高… When I first entered university, my ex-girlfriend asked me what kind of person counts as happy in college. I answered, “Self-consistent.” But viewing it now, true “self-consistency” is exceptionally arduous to achieve. More often than not,…
过去的我非常擅长应试，前十八年的人生中正反馈来得过于轻松，以至于我下意识地认为只要按部就班做事就能得到好的结果。然而，高考的挫败和大学的挑战让我不得不面对现实——绩点、科研竞赛、学生工作的结果… In the past, I was exceptionally skilled at taking exams. Throughout the first eighteen years of my life, positive reinforcement arrived with such effortless ease that I subconsciously assumed following standard routines would inevitably…
人们常说现代人步履匆匆，只有当新年钟声响起时能喘口气，用半小时回顾一下平凡而荒诞的一年。我们渺小而伟大，无时无刻不在神灵的二律背反中膏火自煎。我们不是流水，只能先是犹疑着，随后又是勇敢地走上了… People often say that modern mortals rush about with frantic steps, pausing for breath only when the New Year’s chimes ring out, using half an hour to review an ordinary yet grotesque year. Small yet magnificent, we burn our own tallow…
“有时我们见到‘当下’的尽头，‘过去’会隐约显得更为重大，因为我们除此再没有别的东西，除了‘过去’，我们觉得再没有什么可以懂得。我感觉我正朝往昔坠落，希望能拥有更多的过去，因为我的未来正变得越… “Sometimes when we see the end of the present, the past looms faintly larger, for we possess nothing else, and beyond the past, we feel there is nothing left to comprehend. I feel myself falling into days gone by, longing to possess more…