搏斗集 2023 Struggle on the Cliff’s Edge 2023 第 05 篇 Section 05
四月 “拜托，请捎我一程吧！” April: “Please, Give Me a Ride!”
返回 搏斗集 2023 Back to Struggle on the Cliff’s Edge 2023一个人在一座陌生城市的生活就像是抛弃既有的社会身份重新开始一段人生、探索一个城市，这种感觉很自由、很神奇。很多次觉得没有一座城市引力能把我吸住，只有每一次很用力的告别让我感觉，身体从城市上空坠到楼宇之间了。但在遇见他们之后，一切都变得不一样了。
Living as a stranger in a new city feels like casting off an established social identity to start an entirely new life, exploring urban topography with a sensation both magical and intoxicatingly free. Time and again, I felt that no city possessed enough gravitational pull to anchor me; only the bruising friction of each wrenching farewell made me feel my body plummet from high above the urban skyline into the concrete canyons below. Yet after meeting them, everything changed.
上大学之后，我猛然发现，人生的前十八岁几乎只用处理好学习就可以，其他的亚文化可以随意采撷而不受社会约束；而进入大学以后，我才真真正正体会到主流文化的影响与力量——我需要承担更多人生责任了。
Upon entering college, I abruptly realized that for the first eighteen years of life, one essentially needed only to manage academic performance; other subcultural pursuits could be freely harvested without the leash of societal censure. But once inside university, I truly tasted the colossal gravity and institutional power of the mainstream—I was now required to shoulder genuine existential accountability.
在大学时常觉得自己活得像一把刀、一柄剑，或其它冷硬又尖锐的东西。但是我柔软的朋友总能接住我、包裹我。一次又一次地，帮我走出内耗，给予我摇摇晃晃的安稳。
At university, I frequently felt as though I lived like a cold knife, a sharp blade, or some equally rigid and pointed object. Yet my tender friends could always catch me, wrapping their warmth around my jagged edges. Again and again, they helped guide me out of internal friction, granting me a teetering, precious equilibrium.
我的朋友们最让我钦佩的共同点是他们几乎都不囿于教条。他们都有勇气不随着熙熙攘攘的人群走那一条看似康庄阔气的大道——他们珍视自己三文钱的轻飘飘的独立思想。肤浅的思想躁动地互相摩擦，噼里啪啦地迸溅出一粒一粒梦想、理想、乱想、幻想、空想。
What I revere most in my friends is that practically none are tethered to dogma. They possess the rare courage to refuse to march with the jostling herds along that broad, gilded highway—they fiercely prize their own independent thoughts, light as three copper pennies. Their restless, nascent philosophies brush against one another, crackling and sparking into incandescent embers of dreams, ideals, wild fantasies, reveries, and sweet daydreams.
喜欢他们的真挚与温暖。不同的经历塑造着他们对生活与社会的看法。过分的快乐模糊经历本身，愉悦的体验如此深刻，却又只像是一片夹在梦境中的真实。
I adore their earnestness and warmth. Diverse trajectories sculpt their unique appraisals of life and society. An excess of joy blurs the memory of the episode itself; the ecstatic experience is so profound, yet feels like a sliver of waking truth pressed between the pages of a dream.
“我们生也快乐，死也快乐，杯子里总有酒喝。”
“Joyful in life, joyful in death, with wine forever brimming in our cups.”
万物皆有裂痕，那是光照进的地方。而我的朋友们是完美的，因为他们就是光。
There is a crack in everything; that’s how the light gets in. And my friends are immaculate perfection, for they themselves are the light.