神谕离题 2026 Oracle Digressions 2026
收录： 共十二篇 Twelve pieces in total
因考研的原因，文章起始时间为1-9月。Due to preparation for the postgraduate entrance examination, the essays begin with January and currently run through September.
“如果这份力气还让我有足够多的时间完成我的作品，那么，至少我误不了在作品中首先要描绘那些人（哪怕把他们写得像怪物），写出他们占有那么巨大的地盘，相比之下，在空间中为他们保留的位置是那么狭隘，相… “If this strength still leaves me enough time to finish my work, then at least I shall not fail first of all to portray in it those people—even if I depict them like monsters—and to show how enormous a territory they occupy; how, by…
半梦半醒间惊觉本科四年都是在一个人学习的状态里煎熬。高考前这种转变已有眉目：高三下学期老师的作用减少，加上半数同学前往园区校，人生中首次对我正式提出适应一个人学习的要求（以前寒暑假的玩耍回学校… Half asleep and half awake, I suddenly realized that the entire four years of my undergraduate life had been spent struggling in a state of studying alone. The transition had already begun before the Gaokao. During the second semester of…
十年前的2016年3月12日是周六，植树节。我在围棋课上听到了当时幼小的心理无法理解的事情：14冠王、我的偶像李世石面对谷歌围棋人工智能AlphaGo连败两场，即将败第三场。 Ten years ago, March 12, 2016, was a Saturday—Arbor Day. In my Go class, I heard something that my young mind could not comprehend: Lee Sedol, the 14-time world champion and my idol, had lost two consecutive games to Google's Go AI,…
现在一进入暧昧，我脑子里就会浮现出以前女生的 ghost。不是某一个具体的人，而是一整套似曾相识的话术、话题、表情和节奏。对方刚说出一句话，我就会突然想起：这句话，好像以前也有人这么说过；这个… Nowadays, whenever I enter a flirtatious ambiguity, the ghost of women from my past surfaces in my mind. It isn't any single concrete individual, but an entire repertoire of déjà-vu phrases, conversational motifs, facial expressions,…
远在日本的老友发来消息，问我需不需要代购几本写真集。我稍加思忖列出几个名字，却愕然发现其中没有新有菜的最新踪迹。循着日本网站的蛛丝马迹搜寻，才得知她在上个月已经注销了X账号。十年的女优生涯就此… An old friend far away in Japan sent me a message asking whether I needed him to pick up a few photobooks for me. After a moment’s reflection, I listed several names, only to discover with astonishment that there was no trace of any recent…
我在威高广场弄丢了双手，在火炬八街遗失了双眼 我在学5周边长大，学会了那份无畏的胆魄 我在喂海公园弄丢了舌头，在玛伽山虚度了光阴 我在刘公岛弄丢了歌声，在东方新天地遗失了笑容 I lost my hands at Weigao Plaza, and misplaced my eyes on Torch 8th Street I grew up around Dorm 5, learning that fearless audacity I lost my tongue in ‘Feeding the Sea’ Park, and idled away my youth on Mount Majia I lost my song on…
四年前的这个时候，NMIXX 还在全网争议的中心。那些关于“难听”“割裂”“概念混乱”的评价，如今再回头看，时间替很多东西完成了筛选，也替很多喜欢完成了证明。于是我忽然意识到，自己喜欢… Four years ago around this time, NMIXX stood squarely at the epicenter of internet controversy. Looking back today on those critiques labeling them “unlistenable,” “jarring,” and “conceptually chaotic,” time has done the filtering for many…
七年前，初恋给我分享音乐剧、艺术、审美和那些我当时并不理解的东西。我那时只觉得她附庸风雅，觉得这些爱好是某种过度精致的表演。可本科毕业前夕，我却因为另一个女生，因为一次迟来的靠近，开始学习乐理… Seven years ago, my first love shared musicals, art, aesthetics, and things I could not comprehend at the time with me. Back then, I dismissed it as pretentious posturing, viewing those interests as some kind of overly refined performance.…
毕业这件事，真正落到我身上时，反而没有想象中那么轰轰烈烈。没有电影里那种长镜头，也没有宿舍楼下忽然响起的背景音乐。它只是某个寻常下午，我在校园里走着，忽然意识到文心路和五四广场以后大概不会再以… When the reality of graduation finally descended upon me, it was nowhere near as grand or sensational as I had envisioned. There were no cinematic tracking shots, no soundtrack abruptly swelling beneath the dormitory balconies. It was…
7月，生活的断点，人生的断点。大学前2.5年和后1.5年，高中前1年和后2年，初中前1年和后2年，小学前3年和后3年——每一个人生阶段，都可以被一刀切成两半。 July: a breakpoint in life, a rupture in existence. The first 2.5 years and the latter 1.5 years of university; the first year and the latter two years of senior high; the first year and the latter two years of junior high; the first three…
苏州图书馆流动着压抑与惬意交织的奇妙氛围。许多人伏在桌前，安静地阅读、做题，仿佛只要继续维持这种秩序，生活就不会偏离既定的轨道。我坐在其中，也获得了一点短暂的安宁；但我知道，这份安宁之下，还有… A curious atmosphere, interwoven with suppression and tranquility, circulates through the Suzhou Library. Many people lean over the desks, quietly reading or solving problem sets, as if as long as this order is preserved, life will not…
二十二岁像我这一年好多次熬到大半夜时的时间一样，不知不觉就结束了。但其实如果可以的话，我还是更愿意回到22岁（笑）。22岁就像站在悬崖边，身后是正在坍塌的象牙塔，眼前是迷雾重重的深渊，而我在那… Twenty-two ended without me quite noticing, much like all those nights this past year when I stayed up until some ungodly hour and suddenly realized how late it had become. And yet, if I could choose, I think I would still rather go back…
极致独立自主，不依赖任何人：她们自给自足，经济、情感、人生规划全靠自己。绝不粘人、不讨好、不把幸福寄托在别人身上。伴侣或朋友只是锦上添花，不是必需品。 Radical independence and self-reliance; dependence on no one: They are entirely self-sufficient. Their finances, emotional well-being, and life plans are all under their own control. They neither cling to others nor seek to please them,…