巨流集 2025 The Boundless Great Torrent 2025 第 11 篇 Section 11
十月 消逝的光影 October: The Fading Light and Shadows
返回 巨流集 2025 Back to The Boundless Great Torrent 2025我向来不会承认多么喜爱苏州，苏州距吴江一共不出一百里，自然也称不上思念。但是到头却发现，原是因为习惯了苏州的一切。
I have never been one to admit just how deeply I love Suzhou. Suzhou is less than fifty kilometers from Wujiang, so one could hardly call it homesick nostalgia. In the end, however, I discovered it was simply because I had grown thoroughly accustomed to everything Suzhou offered.
没有乐桥的蒙自米线，没有十全街的小恶魔，没有平江路常去的咖啡厅和店里的猫，走过了再多次，威海于我似乎也称不上亲切。唯一能让我习惯它的，是我要在这里讨口饭吃。
Without the Mengzi Rice Noodles at Leqiao, without Little Devil on Shiquan Street, without that frequent haunt of a café on Pingjiang Road and the resident cat inside, no matter how many times I pace its avenues, Weihai never feels truly intimate to me. The only thing reconciling me to this city is the plain reality that I must earn my bread here.
在苏州六年，我爱苏州的水，河，江，湖。我从未曾意识到，于一座城而言，有河是件奢侈的事情。苏州的河，多到让人忽视他们的存在。每条路旁都应有条河傍着，否则总觉少了些什么，这是在苏州留下的习惯。
Having lived six years in Suzhou, I loved Suzhou’s waters—its canals, rivers, streams, and lakes. It had never occurred to me that for a city, having a river is an exquisite luxury. Suzhou’s waterways are so ubiquitous that people often take their presence for granted. A canal ought to run alongside every street, or else something feels amiss; that is an ingrained habit Suzhou left in me.
来威海的第一年，认为威海有种难以言喻的拥挤。第二年，我发觉是威海少了苏州的河。我愈发喜欢走在环海路边。海水的咸味与海浪的声音令我安心。但是我想念我的归属，在这学五小居里，仿佛失去了。
During my first year in Weihai, I felt an inexplicable sense of cramped constriction. In the second year, I realized it was because Weihai lacked Suzhou’s rivers. I grew increasingly fond of walking along Huanhai Road. The briny salt of the sea breeze and the rhythm of the waves put my heart at ease. Yet I still long for my true sense of belonging—in this modest abode of Dorm 5, that sense seems to have vanished.
这是我的一隅，希望先能自洽，而后在未来的某一天，实现吾与子之所共适。
This is my small corner. I hope first to attain peace within myself, and then, on some future day, realize that state of harmony where “you and I share in mutual delight.”