星孤集 2016-2019 The Solitary Star of Tianshui 2016–2019 第 10 篇 Section 10
中秋之叹 A Mid-Autumn Sigh
返回 星孤集 2016-2019 Back to The Solitary Star of Tianshui 2016–2019又是一年秋好月，别是一般赏月人。八月十五的晚上，在街上望向许久不见的月亮。较以往，这轮明月似乎更加清冷些又在暗中给我些温暖。
Another year, another fine autumn moon, yet those who gaze upon it are no longer quite the same. On the night of the fifteenth day of the eighth lunar month, I looked up from the street at the moon I had not seen for a long time. Compared with before, this full moon seemed colder, yet somewhere within that coldness it also gave me a trace of warmth.
读古人的中秋赏月诗，纳兰性德的“愁中看、好天良夜，知道尽成悲咽”。如一条呜咽的溪流，流进我的心田。十六岁的我，在千军万马的名利场中用笔奋力拼杀，这个世界渐渐地把沉重的责任压在我的肩上。“为中华崛起而读书！”不论有意无意，一代代青年人就这样被时代裹挟着前进，有时却忘记了停下脚步好好思考。
Reading the Mid-Autumn moon poems of the ancients, I encounter Nalan Xingde’s line: “Looking upon such a fine night amid sorrow, one knows it will all turn into choking grief.” It flows into my heart like a sobbing stream. At sixteen, I struggle with my pen in the vast battlefield of ambition and reputation. The world gradually places heavy responsibilities upon my shoulders. “Study for the rise of China!” Whether consciously or unconsciously, generation after generation of young people is swept forward by the current of its age, sometimes forgetting to stop and think.
从古至今，社会的目标从“立己达人”、“修身治国平天下”到如今的“为中华崛起而读书”，儒家积极入世的思想影响了千百年中国，范仲淹、诸葛亮、曾国藩等人用自己的努力，把儒家积极的一面如太阳般照向整个世界。月亮因是被太阳耀眼的光芒隐藏了。于是，夸父追日是努力和勇气，嫦娥奔月则是欺骗和逃避。
From ancient times to the present, society’s ideals have shifted from “establish yourself and help others establish themselves,” and “cultivate yourself, regulate the family, govern the state, and bring peace to the world,” to today’s “study for the rise of China.” The Confucian ideal of active engagement with society has influenced China for thousands of years. Fan Zhongyan, Zhuge Liang, Zeng Guofan, and others used their own efforts to cast the positive side of Confucianism across the world like sunlight. The moon, meanwhile, is concealed by the brilliance of the sun. Thus, Kuafu chasing the sun represents effort and courage, while Chang’e flying to the moon represents deception and escape.
社会似乎已忘记了月亮，我在街上惊恐地踟蹰，只因为街上灯火通明，亮如白昼酒楼上大书“不夜城”；放眼望去，各位市民手中无不例外攥着一部闪闪发光的手机，为分毫红包而顿足叹息。人们纷纷着急用手机转发空洞的“中秋快乐”，甚至不忘配上浮夸的表情。其实，他们为月亮在人间的各种投影而痴狂不已，却唯独忘了那天空之皓月。
Society seems to have forgotten the moon. I walk anxiously through the street, frightened by the sight before me. The streets are illuminated as brightly as daytime, while restaurants proclaim themselves “Cities That Never Sleep” in enormous characters. Everywhere I look, citizens without exception clutch glowing smartphones, sighing in frustration over tiny amounts of money in digital red envelopes. People hurriedly forward hollow messages saying “Happy Mid-Autumn Festival,” never forgetting to attach exaggerated emojis. In reality, they are obsessed with all the moon’s projections in the human world, yet have forgotten the true bright moon hanging in the sky. Regardless of whether it was truly created to commemorate Chang’e, the Mid-Autumn Festival will always remain an invention demonstrating the remarkable foresight of the ancients.
不论是否为了纪念嫦娥，中秋节永远是一项古人远见卓识的发明。圣人叹古之众人，世代囿于稼耜之间，日出而作，日落而息，未有时间品味那如水的月华。“相见但尽一杯酒，无言诉尽悲喜。”大家走出屋子，轻抚月表满目疮痍的表面，映出自己饱经世事的内心。月亮的光辉，能驱走社会的喧嚣，让人在沉思中得到新的感悟。
The sages looked upon ordinary people of antiquity, generation after generation confined to agricultural labor, rising with the sun and resting when it set, with no time to appreciate the watery radiance of the moon. “When we meet, let us simply empty a cup of wine; without words, all joy and sorrow is told.” People leave their houses and gently touch the scarred and cratered surface of the moon, where they see reflected their own hearts, weathered by the affairs of the world. The radiance of the moon can drive away society’s noise and allow people to gain new insight through contemplation. Listen to poets gazing at the moon: From the childish innocence of— “When I was young, I did not know the moon,
and called it a white jade plate,”
听诗人赏月，从“小时不识月，呼作白玉盘”的童稚，到“清辉澹水木，演漾在窗户”的悠闲，到“昨风一吹无人会，今夜清光似往年”的悲凉，再到“人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺”的释然，最后到“惯看秋月春风”的笑谈，清凉的月光总是能衬出赏月人的心境。不知怎么的，想到团圆两字，家人的亲情溢于心间，心底温暖非常。
to the leisure of— “Clear radiance rests upon water and trees,
rippling gently through the windows,” to the melancholy of— “Last night the wind blew, yet no one understood;
tonight the clear light is just as in years past,” then to the acceptance of— “People have sorrow and joy, partings and reunions;
the moon has brightness and darkness, waxing and waning,” and finally to the detached laughter of— “Long accustomed to watching autumn moons and spring winds.” The cool moonlight always reveals the state of mind of the person gazing upon it. Somehow, when I think of the word “reunion,” affection for my family rises within me, filling my heart with warmth.
明日，太阳照常升起，人世间的悲喜剧都将继续上演。月亮无言地将光华倾注在人间每个角落，在这场轮回的开始，每个人心底都温存了一份来之不易的温暖。
Tomorrow, the sun will rise as usual. The tragedies and comedies of the human world will continue. Without a word, the moon will pour its radiance into every corner of the earth. And at the beginning of this new cycle, everyone will preserve within their heart a hard-won trace of warmth.