苇草集 2022 Reeds in the Wind 2022 第 07 篇 Section 07
七月 愿我们都与自我和解 July: May We All Reconcile with Ourselves
返回 苇草集 2022 Back to Reeds in the Wind 2022高考出分了，和心仪大学失之交臂，因为估分估得八九不离十，所以十分坦然。数学炸了，另外科目都是正常水平以内吧。至于数学的始料未及以及接下两天艰难的心理调适，没有办法。一来象征着人生的不确定性，二来也说明着我的综合实力。每一步，都是命中注定的路途。
The Gaokao scores have been released. I narrowly missed my dream university; because my self-estimate had been remarkably close to the mark, I took it with complete composure. Mathematics collapsed, while the other subjects remained roughly within my normal performance. As for the unanticipated mathematics result and the agonizing psychological calibration over the ensuing two days, there was nothing to be done. On one hand, it symbolized the uncertainty of life; on the other, it reflected my true comprehensive ability. Every step is a path destined by fate.
高考这件事，总是几家欢喜几家愁，我见过比正常水平高出二十多分的，也有冲清北最后只有南大的，还有自称考得不好连分数都不愿意说的。我的分数比预估的低了十几分，但反过来想，如果手滑错一道题，再扣四五分，也是很容易的。所以，我在考场上做的每一道题，无论对错，都不后悔。
The Gaokao is forever an affair of joy for some and grief for others. I have seen those who scored more than twenty points above their regular benchmarks, those aiming for Tsinghua or Peking University who ended up only with Nanjing University, and those who claimed they did poorly and refused even to utter their scores. My score was a dozen-odd points lower than projected, but thinking about it conversely, if a slip of the hand had caused another missed problem, shaving off another four or five points would have been all too easy. Therefore, for every question I solved in the examination room, whether right or wrong, I harbor no regrets.
回顾我从小学到初中到高中的过程，总体还是在向更高的平台走，在每一个班级，都能排在比较靠前的位置，即使不是最好的那几个，我觉得也够了。
Looking back on my trajectory from primary school through junior high and senior high, on the whole I was always progressing toward higher platforms; in every class, I could secure a position near the very front. Even if I was not among the few very best, I consider it enough.
和山东青岛的一个同届同学聊了许久，无论高考成绩如何，我最希望我们都能与自己和解。在力所能及的范围努力了，这就足够了。希望2022届考生以及未来参加高考的考生明白：无论考得好与坏，你们的每一分都不多不少，一切都刚刚好。祝福你们。无论到了哪里，都尽力把自己做好。用高考少掉的十几分，作为我成长的助推剂。
I had a long talk with a peer from Qingdao, Shandong. Regardless of our Gaokao results, what I hope for most is that we can all reconcile with ourselves. Having striven to the utmost limit of our capabilities—that is enough. I hope the candidates of the class of 2022 and all future Gaokao test-takers understand: whether you scored well or poorly, every single point you earned is neither too much nor too little—everything is just right. My blessings to you all. Wherever you end up, strive to be your best self. Let the dozen or so points lost on the Gaokao serve as the booster rocket for my growth.
“任何世界只要你爱它，它就是你的世界。”天高，任鸟飞。
“Any world is your world, so long as you love it.” The sky is high, and the birds are free to soar.